The life i had before i met him wasn't so bad. but it had lots of complications, pain and difficulties. i went through a lot before i met him. i got betrayed by my previous bf. i think every girl will know how it is when you are betrayed. thats also from someone you trusts a lot. i also trusted him a lot. may be thats the reason i was hurt so much. i never thought he could be like that. i thought i was lucky to have him. but i guess i was the most unlucky girl. i loved him, tried to be the best girl friend anyone could see. i hope he wouldn't have any complains about my faith. God knows i have been faithful for him. never even thought to be with someone else when i was with him. i don't want to say he was a bad guy. may be most of the guys are like that. cant be satisfied with one. thats what happened to him too maybe. he wasn't satisfied with his first girlfriend maybe, and then he showed me the dreams and brought me in the game. i am not much of a trusting girls. i don't trust people much. but my stupidity didn't have a limit when i trusted him. saw him in collage DJ party. and then became friends. started to talk to each other like friends. slowly sharing stuffs and meeting up in collage canteen. and all of those slowly brought us together. he proposed me on may 10 2007, which was my sisters birthday. i was very happy that day. i called my mom and told her about him. she was happy that i got someone to care for me. who knew all of those dreams were just for a month. yeah, he did care for me in that month. he never let me have a doubt on him. called me very often, gave me wonderful surprises which i never got in my life before that. everything went well till the day i came to across the truth. never even had a single fight or argument for a month. everything went so smoothly and fast. i didn't believe when that angel told me the truth. i called angel because in this world who else can think for other's good. that angel told me, " girl its not good to trust people". i was confused.. he said it very indirectly..i asked again..what he was trying to tell me. then he asked me if i trust my bf. i replied saying yeah i do. and then he asked me if i know everything about him, ( about his past life,about his girl friends..) i replied saying yeah he told me about his ex girl friend's and his childhood. then he told me that may be he didn't tell me that he has two more girl friends. i was frozen by then. i didn't believe him. i didn't want to doubt my bf. so decided not to even ask till he tell me on his own. but what could i do, i was also a human being. couldn't control myself. was feeling so confused and frightened. i am a girl who cry for simple things. that was being a big deal for me, i didn't knew what to do. i called one of his friend to confirm. i told him " don't tell my bf that i called him and even asked about anything"..and then i began to cry when asked him if he had another gf..then that boy said he don't know anything about it. and he only knows me as his gf. i was crying loudly on the call. and i warned him not to tell my bf that i called, and then hanged the phone. five minutes later my bf started calling. i knew that his friend might have told him that i called. then i picked up, and he spoke up saying that he can tell the truth. then i was sure that exactly there was something going on. i felt like my heart was broken in to pieces. i began to cry and hanged the phone. and then he was calling again and again from different numbers. and then messaged me to get online. i didn't have the strength to speak over the phone, so got online. and then he told me that he has another gf. i didn't let him say another word. i got off line. it was late midnight. i went to bed and tried to sleep. but my eyes were full of tears and didn't leave any space for sleep. and then he messaged me and said he anted to meet me. i thought that i should end it up so have to meet him. and then i replied asking him to come to my place early in the morning . i was crying on my bed when the door buzzed sharp at 7 30. i opened and asked him to be seated. i sat on a chair a in front of him( not so close). i waited till he speaks up. i didn't have any word to say. he spoke up. asked me to say something. i said tell me the truth. and he told me everything from the beginning. that he had a girl friend when he proposed me. but he liked me a lot and later on he began to love me. and that i have been real good to him and caring and he has never shared so much with any other girl as he did with me and for a moment he said that he can give up his other girl for me. then i asked him to give me sometime to think and asked him to leave. i didn't let a tear out in front of him. i held all till i say good bye to him. i ran to my room as i locked the door at his back. it was the most horrible day of my life. i didn't know how the day got passed. i thought about our relationship, and then i thought he broke my heart, he broke my trust. i cant trust him again. even though he is ready to leave the other girl i cant give a chance for another heart break. so i messaged him saying that i broke up. and i that i would never meet him, and it would be better if he also wouldn't even see me. then i didn't get any reply from him. i never thought i can spend a day with no word. i am such a talkative girl but for a week or more i was out of words. i forgot to smile and was lost in the silence. i was lucky that he moved to another collage, so i never got to remember any of those moments. but i met him online after some days. and then he started talking. he asked me not to let his girl know about us and blah blah things. i told him to leave me alone. i have already said good bye to him. he is free. he wasn't my business any more. so i asked just to live his life on his own way and not to bring me in it and to forget me. i didn't bother to interfere in his life anymore. so i let everything go and tried to move on with my life. i recovered from that pain day by day with the support and help from my dear friends.when i was finally being a normal human being, i met my mister perfect (ins ha Allah).
i will tell you how i met him in some other post..hehe.. so thats all about it....
